To my little prince

To my Babyroo Loukas,

I’m excited to see you grow as a jolly and charming little boy. I hope you don’t forget the things that your parents and mentors advice and teach you. Here are three simple things I hope you remember throughout your life. I do have more to tell you, but I’ll save that for times that we’re together.

Here we go:
 Jesus loves you and is always with you no matter what happens. 

And I mean NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. Remember that you have a father, a friend, and everything great in Him. He will never forsake you or leave you. He wants you to confide in Him rather than in earthly things. Run to him whenever–may it be that you are joyful or troubled. He’s waiting for you. Jesus will always be there and He only does good and awesome things.

Stay kind and have courage. 
In this world, there are different kinds of people.  Remember to be kind to everyone but be courageous to defend yourself from people who only do cruel things.
Be happy. 
Always do things you’re happy with, that makes other people happy, and most importantly, do things that make our God happy. Find happiness in anything every day. Even if it’s a small thing, it will surely make your life more colorful than it is. Happiness is one of the many keys in our life.

 

Happy first birthday little boy. I remember the time I first held you, you were so fragiiiilee! But now you’re a small step away to when you start to walk. Gaaah, I miss you so much! I know you won’t understand this yet, but I hope you see this when you get older and be proud of your tita (aunt). hahahahahahaha (don’t be embarassed please). I love you always. May God bless your kind heart and soul.

P.S. This is also dedicated to ate amber, kuya marco, anriae, dreamybear, and baby chaszy.

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Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.

Proverbs 22:6

 

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Not in Service

June 29, 2016 ; 3:00 a.m.

Here we go again,

A delightful afternoon when suddenly, the phone rang.

My heart beat faster as I see your name

I wonder in confusion, why today?

 

I still have no words, I still have no guts.

Why are you still calling after what you’ve done?

I look away and try not to see.

I get anxious every second I perceive the phone ring.

 

You may hear the sound of a deafening beep,

And you’ve probably heard the woman speak,

“The number you have dialed is not yet in service,

Please try again in another week.”

 

I don’t understand why I feel so much guilt,

You make my mind wander the darkest labyrinth.

Yet I know one thing every time it transmits,

If it’s from you, ignorance is bliss.


 

Okay, okay. I know. I don’t know if what I did was right. huhu. *crying emoji* But hey, it’s a poem. I think? Is this considered one?  Meh. Anyways, I hope this made sense. This was in my drafts for weeks now and I was hesitant to post it, but taaa-daaaa~ here it is. It has flaws ’cause your girl ain’t perfect. hahahahaha. Hope you enjoyed.

“The nations have fallen into the pit they have dug; their feet are caught in the net they have hidden.” Psalm 9:15

Paalam,

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Messy Mind

At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.

John 14:20

I can’t focus on anything right now. There are so many questions that devour my mind. Questions that are fervent, that words cannot suffice. There are so many little things to question in life and I cannot understand why these vast ones pop in mind. They don’t let me sleep. Thinking about it exhausts me. Thinking about it confuses me. Questions like this come in the most unexpected times, too. Life struck hard. Yet, be calm.

Be calm. Stay calm. Trust in your faith.

Be calm. Stay calm. Everything’s going to be okay.

Be calm. Stay calm. Breathe in. Breathe out.

Be calm. Stay calm. Let your mind rest for awhile.

Let your fear move back and your light come forward.

Let your heart beat in time and your feet on the ground.

Let everything pass by and then gather yourself up.

Let patience and kindness guide you through your path.

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Does your mind play tricks on you sometimes too? My mind these past few days seem to think about lots of things. Especially things that make people question life. Why is that anyways? This blog post made me feel as light as a feather. I’m glad I got it out of my system. I tried to organize my mind and my emotions today, I hope it won’t get messy soon enough.

Remember to fight your battles, win or lose. Do your best and be happy. Surround yourself with happy thoughts. Happiness is key.

“I keep my eyes always on the LORD. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.”

Psalm 16:8

Paalam,

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UPDATE: I was scrolling through Facebook and found an article which summed up what I feel. It also captured what I want to say. It’s great, check it out: WHAT HAPPENS IN YOUR HEAD WHEN YOU CLOSE YOUR EYES AND THINK ABOUT LIVING?

“You’re not superman girl, you need to relax.”

6:00 p.m.

God Knows Everything

Psalm 139 (NCV)

God Knows Everything

For the director of music. A psalm of David.

139 Lord, you have examined me
    and know all about me.
You know when I sit down and when I get up.
    You know my thoughts before I think them.
You know where I go and where I lie down.
    You know everything I do.
Lord, even before I say a word,
    you already know it.
You are all around me—in front and in back—
    and have put your hand on me.
Your knowledge is amazing to me;
    it is more than I can understand.

Where can I go to get away from your Spirit?
    Where can I run from you?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there.
    If I lie down in the grave, you are there.
If I rise with the sun in the east
    and settle in the west beyond the sea,
10 even there you would guide me.
    With your right hand, you would hold me.

11 I could say, “The darkness will hide me.
    Let the light around me turn into night.”
12 But even the darkness is not dark to you.
    The night is as light as the day;
    darkness and light are the same to you.

13 You made my whole being;
    you formed me in my mother’s body.
14 I praise you because you made me in an amazing and wonderful way.
    What you have done is wonderful.
    I know this very well.
15 You saw my bones being formed
    as I took shape in my mother’s body.
When I was put together there,
16 you saw my body as it was formed.
All the days planned for me
    were written in your book
    before I was one day old.

17 God, your thoughts are precious to me.
    They are so many!
18 If I could count them,
    they would be more than all the grains of sand.
When I wake up,
    I am still with you.

19 God, I wish you would kill the wicked!
    Get away from me, you murderers!
20 They say evil things about you.
    Your enemies use your name thoughtlessly.
21 Lord, I hate those who hate you;
    I hate those who rise up against you.
22 I feel only hate for them;
    they are my enemies.

23 God, examine me and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any bad thing in me.
    Lead me on the road to everlasting life.

God knows everything. He will do everything. Remember that you are not alone. Never alone in His presence. Keep you faith and trust in Him. He loves you.

Paalam,

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For A Beautiful Soul

Hello,

I have a very sad and heartbreaking news. A couple of days ago an inspiration and a close family and friend to many have passed away. An absolutely beautiful soul, Christina Grimmie, is now with our God in Heaven. She was terribly and fatally shot after a show in a meet and greet.

Grimmie was such an important person in my life for I completely relate to her music. I discovered her when I was 10  with her Just A Dream cover in YouTube. Since then I have been watching her and supporting her. I basically grew with Grimmie in her journey. Although I didn’t have the opportunity to meet her in person and watch her sing live, It hurts to know that she’s not physically with us now. The tragedy was very heartbreaking for many people. It’s just confusing.

I’ve always admired Grimmie especially her passionate and kind heart. I am very honored that I got to hear her music and follow her journey as an artist. We will never forget you Grimmie and your music will forever live. We miss and love you.

Here is a very sketchy and a really  rough cover of her song, I Bet You Don’t Curse God.  This song is utterly close to my heart. It calms me whenever I feel anxious and sad. It reminds me that God is with me and to always stay grounded. It also reminds me to not take our God for granted. That i should acknowledge Him in everything. I apologize for the audio and quality of this video, I know this is not my best but I wanted to post something for her–even if it’s just a small thing. I was not feeling well when I filmed this so sorry for my voice. I will probably make a better version someday! 🙂 

 (Links Are Down Below!) 

No matter what happens, God is always there for us. Believe and hold on to your faith like Christina did. She is a wonderful person and please, never let her music die.

Rest in Peace Grimmie || March 12, 1994 – June 10, 2016

Team Grimmie all the way. \|/

Link to my cover : https://youtu.be/zF3DoCKcaTU

Link to Christina’s original, “I Bet You Don’t Curse God”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07Qaq0xsgjc

 give Christina’s family some love: https://www.gofundme.com/christinagrimmie

Sign the petition for Christina to be in the next Zelda game: Link to sign the petition

Paalam,

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“Everything is possible for those who believes.” Mark 9:23

An Expression

Be still my heart and know
that the Lord is always with you.
He will never leave you nor forsake you.
In times of troubles, come unto Him.
In times of peace, come unto Him.

Be still my heart and know the Lord.
He is the Messiah and the Jehovah.
Your Saviour and your Friend.
He will guard your heart and protect your soul.
He is the God that knows everything you don’t know.

Be still my heart and have faith.
Trust in Him in everything.
Be still my heart and pray
because His love is never-ending.
Be still my heart then take a breath and
He will make the rest
beautiful and the best,
amazing and perfect and blessed.

This is a tranquilizer, it’s just a thought. Calming my heart. Calming my soul. Trying. Goodnight.

May 15, 2016//12:44 am

Paalam,

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What’s Up // November

Hey!

I am an avid fan of Reese Lansangan and her recent blog post was another edition of “As Of Late” which is her way to update everyone with her life. As i’m reading her post i’ve been inspired to do the same and decided that i’m gonna take time and update “What’s Up” with me every month.

Making : a blog post 😛
Cooking : Nothing because mom cooks for us at home. YAS
Drinking : Water. With ice please.
Reading: The First Phone Call From Heaven by Mitch Albom
Wanting: films for my instax and also an extra battery for my Camera
Looking: at my family’s old pictures… actually reminiscing right now. ehe
Playing: computer detective games
Deciding: if Grey is better than Natsu
Wishing: I’m at the Philippines with my whole family.
Enjoying: a playlist of my favorite music
Waiting: for a miracle to happen lol // for my first day of school
Liking: Adele’s new music
Wondering: if I could ever survive… // when i could be with my whole fam again
Loving: all the love people get
Pondering: on what to do with my life.
Considering: getting a new hair do
Watching: Himouto! Umaru-chan!! // Once Upon A Time // my family’s roadtrip videos
Hoping: I could go home to Ph for vacation next year. please huhu
Marvelling: How beautiful our planet Earth is
Needing: inspiration and skills
Smelling: mom’s cooking
Wearing: pajamas everyday
Following: what my heart wants to do
Noticing: that I badly need to go on a diet hahaha
Knowing: that I have my family and friends who will always support me
Thinking: of ways on how to make my vocabulary wider and how to compose lyrics for a song
Admiring: how the sun rises and sets and how the night sky is lit by stars and moon
Sorting: my messy mind
Buying: fooooood
Getting: why people change
Bookmarking: Attachments
Disliking: being alone but at the same time wanting to be alone
Opening: my heart out to new things
Giggling: about the funny pictures I have as a kid
Feeling: anxious about something i don’t know
Snacking: nutella and breadsticks
Coveting: a nice day at the beach // on eating filipino street foods ughhhh
Wishing: I could teleport and  travel the world
Helping: mom with chores and my friends with their problems
Hearing: people’s sighs
Thanks to Reese Lansangan (reeselansangan.com) for inspiring me, here’s her blogpost : As Of Late
Original Post here: Meet Me At Mikes
Paalam,
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